My Father is NOT my Hero

Lately I have seen a lot of posts about father. Article, video, song etc. Even the most famous phrase "MY DAD IS MY HERO" seems to appear in my laptop everyday. Friends keep talking about their father, about their good relationship with the father. But I don't see all that in my life.

Last year was a big hit in my life. I had quarrel, a big one with my dad. It hurts me a lot. My intention was to protect my mother from being the victim of my green monster dad. But I never thought that it will end up to my current situation. I moved out from house or I rather say, my dad kick me out from house. I don't mind but my only concern is my mother. I missed my mother a lot. I always pray that she would have a good life. I am looking forward to meet her but I just couldn't reach her because I don't want to face my father's face. I hate him.

People can say whatever they want to say about me. They don't know the truth. It is okay. My sin is only between me and God. I will wait until the Judgment day.

~ I am not a perfect child but my love to my parents is the most perfect thing I can offer. ~

Rejection

Rejection is a hurt word. My life has never been excluded from it. There were so many rejections I have experienced in my life. I know I have nothing to offer to people. I am a graduate but all my life I have been rejected because of how people see the outside of me. My appearance may not profess about my achievement but my belief is that it is the inner side that makes who you really are and not the appearance of how shiny and bright your clothes. I may not have much knowledge to share with but my view on life is what I hold onto to move forward. Scare of being rejected? Yes I admit that. It always happens to me everyday. That is why sometimes, I accept rejection and let myself being bullied by the streets. My only reason for that is - they do not know what they are doing. So I forgave. Inside of me, I am angry but I believe anger does not benefit me. So I let it go.

~ Rejection is terrible but Patient will overcome it~

Hatram

Short blog : F R I E N D

How do you define friend? Real friend? True friend? I'm afraid that there is no definite answer to this. We all do have friends in our life. indeed we need one. We meet many kind of friends with many faces but how do you know that this people will be your friends forever? How do you know who is your BFF?err..bestfriend forever..rite? I don't even know if such thing could exist nowadays- at least for a short run..yess..but for a long run..it is very rare to retain such a long BFF relationship..but to me, everyone is a friend until the time comes to reveal the proof that who is your true friend..some of us might get shock for the result ..it is not even your BFF is your true or real friend..i do have some unsettle issue with friend - stuff , but what i believe is that true friend comes from the heart, though we are miles apart, less conversation (might not even a conversation in a day), but the sincerity will always overwhelm all the distance and silent mode for years..i have been there and i know how does it feel to be left by people that you thought is your BFF ..it sucks (for real) haha..argument in the past will remain history, nobody want to be in a friend fighting but trust me true friends are gonna need the fuel and heat sometimes. That is how a true friend relationship should be..bygone be bygone

~ your sincerity is enough for me to praise you as a true friend eventhough time and distance are never been good to our friendship~ Hatram

Respect and Friendship

Respect. One little word with big and deep meaning. Lot of people misunderstand it. Person with power, rank, money is who people always give their respect to. I was there for a while. Having that short experience had opened my eyes towards people around me especially my friends. I should thank to God for giving me such an opportunity to see and realize who are my true friends. People that stand for you no matter how far the distance and with less conversation yet the friendship never grow apart from what we had earlier.. that I called true friendship.

I admit that I feel good when people look up at me. But I always remind myself to stay low. Of course there was a time when I brag myself but truly it was nothing at all. It was just a joke, nothing more nothing less. True friends would understand it. Nevertheless, the short experience was a very sad journey. It was not planned at all. I just go with the flow. It broke my heart seeing people that never notice about me, started to greet and smile at me. But what hurt me the most was seeing one of a friends of mine bragging about me. Sometimes I got confused whether it was pure action or just fooling around. We had been friends for few years. I know she is friendly.A lot of people wanted to get close to her. She is somebody. But she never show off to people her background and that what makes me look up at her. 

But today, I don't see the same person in her anymore. She got rank and for sure she now has new circle of friend. I should have not spare that thought about her even for a second that she was different from all the elite people I've met. 

Now, I received no more news from her. Her problems, complaints etc are no longer known to me. I am sure that she has found someone better than me. A person that she would describe a true friend of her. The last message I received from her was a birthday wish to me. That had really made my day even for awhile. But for sure, that birthday wish was passed to me only after few persons posted at my Facebook wall. It broke my heart indeed 'cause I know that she has forgotten my birthday and the rest of pieces of me. 

For once, I gave her my respect and friendship; and so I say thanks to her for making me realized that I was wrong about her. Goodbye my friend. It was a pleasure to meet you. 

~Respect and friendship are two different things but they are living in the same boat and so they sail the journey of life together forever.~

Hatram